High juice squash

Well I never . . . . . tonight I've had a lovely fresh salad with homemade vinegarette on it. To drink I avoided the coffee and had high juice (Aldi summerfruits) it's my favourite taste in squash or pop , i have at times drunk LOADS of the stuff. Tonight I suddenly had an urge to read the label, 58% fruit juice, raspberry, apple, strawberry . . . . . . sounds good , sugar . . . .
ok read the little table of calories and what have you . . . . . per 250ml serving 110 calories eeek!
I guess it's not so bad? but when you think how much of it I can get through on a hot day (well i know it's cold atm) I've been trying to drink more , and I know I make it very diluted . . .. .. but that really adds up, and from the 58% of juice the main rest of it is sugar , I know Sally can educate me about sugar - maybe she'll do us a sugar post ??
It doesn't bode well for the children's teeth either does it.

The manner of my Dr keeps going through my head too, she's usually so nice , well she seems it, but this time she was so lacking in empathy when it cam to my weight going up rather than down. I'm back on the Xenical again today, had taken a break from it when we lost our Cassie, obviously eating chocolate when bad things happen isn't a good idea.
She really was just abrupt and well I won't go on I know things play on my mind so i'd better just deal with it. . . . . . . . . . . my tendencies from my youth of over eating and then purging are jangling in my head, I still fall into the over eating "Well I've eaten too much now , I might aswell eat even more . . . ." i've had one piece of choc I may aswell eat a whole large bar . . . . . . you see all the dots and trailing off thoughts . . . . . . depression and paranoia and everything else . . .. . .. . this fat fight and mental fight is no good for my head either . . . . . . . . I could be dead honest about it all , but i'm guessing you wouldn't want to read it.

dawny x